i'm at school and bored...extremely bored. the teacher is talking and wamp wamp wamp is going in my ears. the only thing i know is that i'm just writing down what she writes on the board. this week will be slow for me. school we actually only had 3 chapters of work, instead of the usual 5 to 6. work is work.

i woe up this morning and realized i'm getting sick. its nothing serious right now. but i know that it will grow and fester. it sucks. i usually get sick once a year, and think this is the time. maybe its a massive allergy attack...but i don't know. all i know now is that i'm just kinda sitting here and just thinking about what i may do before i go to sleep.

things have been happening which have been saddening me, other things lift me up to cloud nine, but maybe its stressing me more then i let on. if you know me, those closest to me are the dearest to me. i'm not the one to hear everything, but i know a few things that nerve me, cause as my roommate says, "I can't see their logic in the situation." i can't, i don't, and i think i never will.

some i do understand, some. many i don't. i think i worry beyond my control of course, but i think it may be effecting me, though you may not know about it. scream of the top of a mountain and the world will not wait, by the time you go up and come down, more worries will come to bother you. scream in a pillow and get your stuff over with. getting it over with is the easiest way to get rid of the problem. though not in every situation, in most.

ugh, tired, body feels weird, nose even weirder....sickness. its great.